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| The Sermon family treks on through thick and thin! |
After loading our sleeping gear onto the bus, it was time to get the rest of our stuff into our family carts. It was still quite dark, so while others were getting breakfast, I ended up fruitlessly searching over and over again for my family's cart or any of my family members, none of which could be found. I was getting pretty sick of roaming everywhere with my heavy pack, but finally I spotted our cart with the purple flag away from the rest. I grabbed a bit of breakfast and hurried over to get in line with everyone else, finding some of my family members for the first time that morning.
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| Finally all lined up and ready to go |
We got a bit of instruction, had a prayer, then started out on the river trail that goes out from the Sixth Crossing. This was the section of the Mormon Trail the Saints covered after leaving that crossing area. At the beginning, the trail was quite pretty, running right along the banks of the Sweetwater. The dawn was also starting to break a little, so it got even more nice as we went along for a bit. Zac and I started out in the yoke with the rest of the family following behind. That section was pretty flat and easy, so we were able to take care of it on own own without a problem. We went for several miles before switching out.
During that time, everyone was in high spirits, so there was a lot of talking and laughing. The combination of the sun starting to rise and the physical exercise meant that we were able to start shedding some of our heavy layers along the way too. Perhaps unsurprisingly, it didn't take too long for the company to get pretty strewn out along the trail. We were situated in the front of the middle, and all our carts stayed fairly close together, but only a couple of carts behind us, things started to spread out. By the time we made our first switch, the last group was at least half a mile behind. More pauses along the way became necessary to give people a chance to catch up. The space gave us time to check out some of the cows and pronghorn that were grazing along the route.
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| Getting more spaced out as we went along the river |
We kept trucking along at a decent pace until we hit the first sustained incline at about mile 5. Zac and I were back in the yoke at this point, but we definitely needed some help from the pushers to get up the hill. I've done a Trek before in Virginia, but that was a long time ago and, of course, in very different terrain, I still remembered, however, how miserable it is to get those heavily-laden carts up any sort of hill. They just don't want to move, and it's difficult to make them do so. It didn't help that the trail where we actually walked for that stretch was covered with sagebrush, so every step was threatening to break an ankle on uneven ground. Still, even with the difficulties, we managed to make it up as a family without too much trouble or time.
We were stopping for a bit longer at the top of that hill, so I ended up running back with a fair number of others in the front to help those who were still making their way up. I ended up pushing one of the bishopric's carts at the very back. I actually really dislike pushing overall as compared to pulling. Pushing is pretty much always a matter of putting your whole body, including your head, in a straight line to get the most power into it. This means you are starring straight at the ground for extended periods, while straining a lot more than you have to do while pulling.
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| Zac and I pulling followed by the rest of the family |
I was doing my best to appreciate the moment there and feel the Spirit of the place, but it became increasingly difficult as the feeling of illness, which had at first subsided as we stopped moving, became increasingly intense. Partway through, I had to drop to a crouch to prevent myself from passing out. I stayed in that awkward position through the rest of the talk, and found that I was barely recovered enough to stand and move slowly again after it finished. I was pretty worried about it, as I really didn't want to end up on the Razor, or dune-buggy type thing, that was shuttling the sick or weary around. Even so, as I went back to the line-up, I was seriously considering asking for a ride as I was having trouble even walking.
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| Short break at the top of the first hill., where the rescuers first saw the Willie company. I'm in the teal coat and blue hat, almost dead center. Definitely wasn't feeling great here. |
Even with my sad condition, I decided to see what taking some ibuprofen would do for me. I'd quite unwelcomely discovered that my period had started that morning, and I figured I might just be suffering the effects of that combined with the unusual physical exertion. Feeling completely terrible is one of the side effects I get from my period quite often, so this assumption didn't seem impossible. I also knew that if that were the case, ibuprofen is typically a sure-fire way to get myself back on track. So with faith that the medicine would take care of the pain, I slowly started out with my family.
Because I was in such poor condition, it wasn't long before I started lagging behind my family. I regretted this deeply, as I felt deeply my duty as a ma for them. It killed me that I couldn't help them, but I knew that I could do them no good until I gave myself time to recover a bit. A number of carts passed me by, including one that one of my new ward friends, Katie, was on. She left her cart to see how I was doing, and I explained my situation and my hope for an improvement in short order if I took it slow. She sympathized, and instead of just heading back to her cart once she knew what was going on, she stayed to walk and talk with me, slow as I was. Katie is a big hiker and certainly had no need at that point to take it easy herself, but I greatly appreciated her company and concern.
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| My friend, Katie, in the purple was a good support while I felt ill |
It took awhile, but fortunately, my prediction had been on the money, and I started to feel a bit better as we went on. I recovered gradually as we crossed the next 2 miles or so until I was in pretty decent shape again. Still, I was not in a condition to run and catch up with my family. We went up another hill, this one longer than the first, and I felt awful that I wasn't with them when they really needed my help. In my position, I didn't see how I was ever going to catch up with them again until we had a long stop. This made me quite sad, but imagine my delight as we crested the hill and I saw my family on the side of the trail waiting for me! In that moment, I truly felt the joy of having not been forgotten. It impressed upon me not only a small sense of the joy we can have in the remembrance that our Heavenly Father and Savior will never forget us, but also the importance of likewise remembering those in our real families and wards. It is our duty and privilege to actively seek them out and minister to their needs.
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| I was feeling a bit better here, but still taking it easy and lagging behind the rest. |
By that point, the weather was basically perfect. It was in the low 60's, which felt just right while pulling handcarts. Most people were down to a T-shirt and shorts. As we were eating, I thought about how grateful I was that we had such nice weather, rough though the nights were. Bishop Lemon had been telling us for months that he was praying for snow the whole way, but I'm glad that somehow our prayers had overridden his! I was also grateful that we weren't doing all this Trekking in pioneer clothing in addition to summer heat, like most people usually do it. Even from my Mutual Trek experience, I remembered how unpleasant that combo was! Modern gear made it much more tolerable.
Soon, we were back on the trail again, The terrain was growing ever more barren and hilly, so much more collaboration as a family was required to get our cart safely up and down the many slopes, some of which were quite steep. Along the way, I really enjoyed getting to know each of my family members a little more as we talked and worked together. Each of them has first-rate qualities, and I was delighted to see those attributes set off to best advantage in those circumstances.
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| Two of my "daughters," Sarah and Shanalee |
One of my "daughters," Sarah, was having some knee pain that slowed her down somewhat, so when I wasn't in the yoke myself, I found myself lagging a bit behind the rest of the family to keep her company and ensure she was doing OK. That circumstance gave me a great opportunity to get to know her quite well on a number of levels. Because she is one of the ward missionaries I have a stewardship over, I felt especially grateful for the chance. It has made a big difference for me both on Trek and to this day. Our lagging also gave me a chance to get to know Sua, a Polynesian girl who had recently started attending our ward, better as well. She was dealing with some kind of injury which required her to take it more slow too, so she ended up near our cart as we were in the back of the line now. I'll talk more about her exciting story in a coming post.
People were starting to drop like flies as we went along this section of the trail. Many had ended up on the Razor, so some families were left with only a couple people doing all the pulling. Bishop had asked various people from families that were doing OK to go help some of the families that were having a rough time. Even with that redistribution along the way, some carts were having trouble. While we weren't the strongest family overall, everyone was doing well enough that we were keeping up a decent pace and no one had been lost.
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| This was the family I was able to help. They'd lost three of these folks to reassignment and sickness, leaving only three to pull at the end. |
After awhile, we came to the longest and steepest incline of the trail that day. Most of the carts were partway up this hill by the time the last few carts, including my family and the one I was helping, were starting out. We could all tell that this was going to be a real challenge, just by looking up at the other stronger families struggling further along the incline. There were some expressions of dismay among those last few carts, but we all worked to rally each others' flagging spirits and strength and started up. We were making it alright at first, but then started to hit the really challenging sections where the pits and washes in the trail combined with the steep terrain to make the going very tough.
| The hills were never easy for any of us. |
We were doing alright, but everyone was pretty exhausted after the exertion of the roughest section with still a fair amount of challenging incline left. I wasn't sure how we were going to make it, but just before our resolution really began to fail, a bunch of figures appeared over the crest of the hill. It was many of the people who had already successfully gotten their carts up. They certainly looked like angels to me at that moment, even more so because I knew that they were already tired from pushing their own carts up that hill. Back they came in a swarm, and soon there were and extra 3-5 people on each of the remaining carts. The extra manpower made the proposition much easier, and it wasn't long until every cart was in line again and a happy, though exhausted cheer rose from the ranks.
I'll admit, those last few miles were not at all easy. It was difficult to buoy up both our physical energy and spirits. Almost everyone felt the same way about it. Still, we were all pretty tightly grouped in the company now, and it remained so for the last part, so though it wasn't easy for anyone, we were all actively offering support and consolation to each other from cart to cart and family to family. There was almost no murmuring, and everyone worked hard to make the best of the situation. That spirit of Zion was really the thing that kept us all moving forward along the way. Slowly, ever so slowly, those distant buses began to loom a little closer. Finally, we dragged ourselves over the last few hundred feet and arrived! Everyone got gear loaded into the buses and the carts were loaded onto a mission truck. We'd made it, beyond expectations, we'd made it over 17 miles of Mormon Trail!
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| The trekking never ends, as it seemed |
Everyone was dead tired. As we drove over the same stretch of the "highway" we'd just covered, the vast majority of people on the buses fell asleep. We all needed it. I was very tired too, but I found that sleep wasn't in the cards for me on that ride as we drove for about 2 hours to our camping destination for the night. As soon as we got going, our driver, Kathleen, asked about what we'd been up to that day. No doubt she could see how beat up everyone looked. I told her about what we'd done, the challenges we'd faced, and how rewarding it had been to walk in the footsteps of the pioneers. She was impressed that we'd done so much and expressed satisfaction that the efforts of the pioneers were being remembered.
I knew a bit about Kathleen from the ride up, but there was still a lot about her I didn't know. I figured she was probably a member, coming from the Utah County area, but I wasn't sure. I began to seriously doubt that as we talked about the pioneers. She clearly was at least aware of them and some of their sacrifices, but didn't seem to know much about their specifics. I filled her in on some of their stories, sharing some of the common knowledge along with many of the little gems I'd learned from The Price We Paid and the other resources I'd read. She was quite interested, and we had a good dialogue about the pioneers.
During our discussion of the pioneers, we exchanged many thoughts and feelings about the goodness of God and His mercies. From the way she expressed herself, I suspected she was probably some kind of Evangelical Christian, and impression that was borne out when she eventually told me about her church and some of the things she did there. She also ended up sharing with me many of the struggles God had helped her through in her life, the most serious of which had been watching her daughter battle cancer. She described how, in that process, she'd seen many miracles as God protected and assisted her daughter and the whole family. Kathleen also described her own personal struggles after going through a divorce and several difficult dating relationships in subsequent years. We exchanged our feelings on the importance of faith in the midst of trials and a mutual assurance that God is ever merciful.
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| Buses have never looked so good at the end of a long day. Even the Bishopric agrees! |
As we got closer to our destination, Kathleen mentioned that we'd be passing a ghost town she and her father used to visit every year as he'd grown up there. She described how her relationship with her father had been a difficult one, as he was not a practicing Christian and was a heavy drinker. Despite the issues and resentments she sometimes dealt with regarding him, she said she always appreciated those trips and the memories associated with them since it provided a time where they could really bond in positive ways. Since he has passed away, those memories have become all the more precious.
In speaking of her father, Kathleen expressed fear that his soul may be in trouble, because he did a lot of bad things and wasn't a committed Christian. I was a bit hesitant, but felt impressed that I should share some specific thoughts with her on the subject. I testified of the eternal nature of families and also my conviction that God has a plan designed to redeem all his willing children, including baptism for the dead to extend all his covenants with those who repent in the next life. She listened attentively and without argument, but made little comment on the specifics, so I wasn't sure what good I'd done. Baptism for the dead is certainly not a principle that I typically share with people early in gospel discussions, but I couldn't help myself in this scenario. It simply felt like I was supposed to. I prayed that if I was improperly receiving that inspiration, that the Lord would at least prevent it from causing damage if it could do no good.
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| A lot of people were sleeping on the buses, even the Lemons! |
Everyone was very hungry, but Bishop felt that it was important for us to see Rock Creek Hollow in the last dying light of the day, so we gathered quickly at the gate, where the senior missionary bore his testimony to us and told us how President Hinckley, when he visited that site, said that it is, beyond the temples, one of the few places where Christ has literally walked and lingered, making it sacred ground. It was to this natural enclave that the beleaguered Willie company resorted after traversing Rocky Ridge, the highest point of the Mormon Trail, in unimaginably difficult circumstances. 13 members of the company died in this location, and were buried here.
In complete silence, sensing the holiness of the place, as a group we filled into this hallowed place, pausing in small groups to read the plaque commemorating the dead and pay our respects. Though all were starving, there was no rush for anyone to beeline toward the hearty dinner that was waiting already prepared for us. The subdued tone persisted as we returned and did eat. Joviality simply felt out of place in that moment.
| Rock Creek Hollow |
After dinner, we traveled silently through the dark of Rock Creek Hollow to reach the location of our fireside, where the Bishop was waiting, on the other side of the creek. We quietly filed in, tired, but excited to see what was in store for us that night. Once we'd all sat down, Bishop asked Viry, one of the food planners for Trek, to pass out some cakes that she'd prepared for us. She got started a bit, but it was clear that we were all meant to get one, and it would definitely have taken forever for her to do it alone to the whole crowd.
I was on the front row just watching as she began this process, and seeing the magnitude of it, wanted to give her a hand, but wasn't sure that it was my place to do so. A split second after I had that thought, she simply whispered, "help!" with a look of quiet desperation. That was enough reinforcement for me, so I immediately jumped up to give her a hand as did one other sister. Even with the three of us passing them out, it took about 5 minutes to get them all distributed.
As I was handing out the cakes, one thing that really impressed me was the true spirit of gratitude apparent in everyone. Almost every person I handed a cake to said a very sincere thank you with a smile, as if I was giving them a real treasure, and I could feel the true gratitude radiating out from them. It was a profound experience in that simple moment, and I was struck with my own strong wave of gratitude that I happened to be perfectly positioned such that I had the privilege to serve them. It was a perfectly clear instance, in my mind, of how richly both a giver and a recipient can be blessed when both fulfill their role under the influence of the Spirit. I felt impressed that this is the exact relationship I can and should have with my Savior as I more perfectly strive to receive His grace freely given. I hope to do so with the same frank and deep gratitude I felt from my brothers and sisters that night.
Bishop began by saying that he knew just how tired and beat down we all were, but he expressed gratitude for the good spirit that had been maintained throughout the day. He described how much it meant to him to see everyone so diligently and freely looking for ways to serve one another. He then called our minds to just how hungry we all were when we finally got into camp. Though we had been properly fed, he invited us to then eat the cakes we'd been given. Each had been made of 4 ounces of flour and water, the exact ration that the Willie pioneers got to revitalize them after a full day of pulling like we'd done. He asked that we all try to eat the full cake to appreciate what it was like for them.
The truth is, I was surprised that the cake didn't taste more terrible than it did. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't good, but it was at least edible. I didn't have to gag it down. Still, it was entirely sobering to think of only having that sustenance to power you through a full day of pulling, day after day, with only the promise of further ration cuts to look forward to. It reinforced just how desperately those suffering saints were in need of rescue. I'm sure such a situation would have killed me pretty quickly.
As we ate, Bishop felt inspired to have about 5 people come up and share their experiences from the day. Each experience and testimony was powerful in its own way, most speaking about the power that chances to serve had had during their day. Most memorable to me was the testimony of a girl from the Layton ward who started by pointing out that she wasn't wearing any shoes as her feet were too swollen to fit into any at the moment. She then described how she had been obliged by illness to ride in the Razor for the last leg of the trail, though she was initially very reluctant to accept that help. As she made that journey, though, she realized that the Razor was like the assistance offered by Christ. Though we don't always appreciate or recognize our need in the moment, Christ is always ready to pick us up and bring us quickly to safety when we, in reality, aren't capable of traveling that distance any other way. Rather than resisting Him or begrudging our own weakness, we need to humbly and gratefully accept His help, then enjoy the ride. She emphasized that there is no reason to regret our infirmity and weakness, rather we should rejoice that they allow us to draw close to Christ.
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| Here's the 4 ounce bag of flour we were given as a remembrance. Missionary tag included to show size, but there could be some unintended symbolism there as well. |
Once the fireside was finished, everyone quietly filed back toward camp to get ready for bed. I lingered a bit to help Viry with the clean-up of the left-over flour cakes. A few others were also there, but it ended up being good I'd hung around because I had brought my flashlight, which ended up being very much needed, as the others hadn't brought one.
It was very peaceful walking back through Rock Creek Hollow in the velvety darkness. The river lent a peaceful, solemn sound to the place, and I reflected upon how it provided an essential life-line to the saints in many ways, giving not just hydration, but also direction, yet it also threatened to take many lives every time they had to cross icy waters. I think that's a pretty apt analogy for our mortal trials. In a multitude of ways, they are absolutely essential for our eternal exaltation. Without them, we couldn't hope to become like our Father in Heaven, because it is in the midst of them that we become most acquainted with Him, yet those trials often exact a heavy personal price.
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| The Wyoming nights were always spectacularly beautiful. |
The pioneers were a great example of how to accomplish this form of consecration. The vast majority of them never regretted or begrudged what they were put through on the plains. They appreciated how it allowed them to know God better. This is an approach I am working harder to adopt in my own life. It isn't entirely easy, but it's certainly worth the effort.
Back at camp, I ended up at the bonfire built there to soak up some more warmth. I suppose I felt the same reluctance many felt toward going to bed right away, Don't get me wrong, we were all exhausted in every sense of the word, but it indeed seemed a shame to sleep away the precious moments in that place and moment in time. Instead, many were gathered just enjoying each other's company. The time there was brief, but delightful. I spent a good amount of it talking to one of the recently reactivated guys I'd worked with over the past 6 months or so. It was lovely to chat with him about his experiences thus far and to see the depth of the progress he's made.
| Amy and me on the trail, her in her pioneer bonnet and me in my modern one, which I'm wearing backward for some reason. Her family was right behind mine early in the day. |
I also spent some time hanging around with my two "daughters" that come from my ward. Both are young and preparing for missions, and I find their unguarded enthusiasm and openness very refreshing. They told me about their experience singing in General Conference once upon a time. About this time, a hymn-singing duet accompanied by a violinist unexpectedly started up. It ended up being the brain child of our Ward Mission Leader, whom I work with a lot, and Sean. Once they started singing, it turned into a bit of a campfire sing-a-long with many joining in. The spirit of the whole thing was quite unique. It was similar to what I would always feel on the mission when there was any kind of missionary gathering, though it had a somewhat different flavor. I think it similarly stemmed from a sense of satisfaction in being with fellow laborers enjoying each other's company after a period of diligent, inspired work. It was pleasant to have that sense anew.
The whole pow-wow lasted maybe an hour, after which everyone really was ready for bed. I wandered back to my tent where I did some personal study followed by some daily decompressing with Amy. Karen was there at first, but she had decided to sleep in the Birkeland's car that night after having a rough time the night before due in part to some medicine she was taking. It was, again, a pleasure to exchange thoughts on the day with Amy. Her reflections helped to enrich the experience for me. Soon, I was snug in my bag, with no repeat of the freezing of the night before thanks to Amy's blanket plus a few extra layers everywhere I could manage. I was so tired, I fell sound asleep in no time, anticipating what the new day would bring!















That is really not a lot of flour! I'm impressed that you did all of that when you weren't feeling well. I spend most of the first day of my period needing to lie down so I have a lot of sympathy for that.
ReplyDeleteYeah, it wasn't fun for a while there, and having only pit toilets to use at best didn't make things any better! Still, exercise is sometimes helpful. It was only overdoing it that made me tank in a hurry. Overall, it was pretty lousy timing, but still taught me some useful things. Thank goodness for medication!
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